Yesterday I made a choice to have the focus of my day off be creativity. I woke up early and was feeling overwhelmed at all the things that I want to do(a common feeling lately), then I had this shift, a downsizing of my expectations for the day and an idea that all I wanted to do was give myself the time to be able to play and create. To have some freedom to just explore, and what a good idea that turned out to be.
Of course I still had my other responsibilities to take care of which I did, but there was a shift from feeling overwhelmed and under accomplished to feeling like I was doing exactly what I wanted to and this is going to take me in the direction of being more accomplished, and of living a more creative life.
It also felt good because it was a day off shared with Steve (my husband) and his focus was work, study and gardening and I do find it tricky to sit and be playful, creative and not goal oriented around someone who is being busy and effective and efficient. But this is EXACTLY what I need to get better at, doing my own thing, guilt free, whenever it suits me ( well on my days off anyway !). And I’ll just add here that this is about me, Steve is more than happy for me to spend my time doing whatever I choose, it’s my stuff( he even came with me to the art shop so I could get some gesso… he’s a keeper!).
So strengthening this side of me is about giving myself time, making me a priority ( sometimes), finding my creative flow and having some time to play.It’s also about doing all of this when I’m in the middle of my family, who are doing whatever they are doing and going through whatever’s happening in their lives. It’s about being present to them, but also present to me. I’m working on it! I’m not there yet, but yesterday was really good.
Thanks for reading,
Ps. Today’s focus is family, I need to help Phoebe get ready for camp, do lots of washing, plan some meals, go the supermarket ( shudder), Cook, clean and be a taxi driver and supervising driver. I’m still going to fit some time in for my #drawingofmyday though ! Hope you’ve got some time for you this weekend too.