So I’ve been a bit blue lately ( you may have noticed) and being blue has made it hard for me to sit down and do the things I love. Even though I know that it helps, and sometimes it’s about starting, or that doing things I love makes me feel better. At times I just haven’t had the energy to overcome the feelings like “what’s the point” or that “whatever create from here is not something I’ll want to remember” kind of feelings. But ….. things are shifting, not externally but more how I’m recognizing the stress I’ve been under, acknowledging my feelings and needs, but not being so consumed or overwhelmed by all the feelings. I know, that’s huge right ?
Do you journal ? Do you write the ugly/bad/sad stuff down in your diary ? Do you make art to express the negative stuff as well as the good things ? Well I struggle with this, I normally only want to write the happy things in my journal, the gratitude, the joy, the love and the things I want to remember. That’s why sadly I destroyed my childhood diaries.
Writing morning pages and just letting the words pour out has given me a chance to change this. I’m writing it all, not censoring myself , writing quickly scrawling the words so that even I will possibly never be able to read them. It has been really helpful. My big challenge is to be able to do this with art journaling. I’m thinking of ways to approach this in the future, but for now here are my Get Messy inspired pages for this week.
I got up early before everyone else and these pages just happened. What a beautiful way start to my weekend. I’m nearly ready to be fully present to everyone else and give my time and energy and love to those that matter to me because now I feel like me again.
Thanks for being here to read my words and see my creative explorations. I really am grateful for that, for you for my little blog.